So I haven't updated in quite a while... not that there hasn't been anything to update on! As I have reflected these past 3 months it has been a whirl wind and it makes me think "what have I been doing?!".
In a nutshell back in October when I ran the Tails and Trails 5K I was hit on the eyelid by a bug or something. When I brushed it off I felt a small stinging sensation but didn't think too much about it, after all I was running in a race. As the week following progressed my right eye began to swell where the bug hit me and I soon looked like I had been in a big ol fight!
It took 10 weeks but finally after 4 doctors, multiple antibiotics, steroids, and ointments and I finally have my eyelids back to normal! They never fully concluded if it was the bug that caused all the mayhem but was told it was a stubborn case of blepharitis and staph infection.
Because of being on all the medications, steroids, lack of exercise and crappy eating, I ended up gaining around 20 pounds! Not what I wanted to do. After all I was on track to try and get to my 100 pound weight loss goal by January 1, 2011. I felt like I had gotten on the wrong bandwagon and didn't know it! Isn't my weight and health suppose to be getting better not worse?!?!
I knew I wasn't going to reach my weight loss goal by the end of the year and the whole no sugar thing... well that went out the window real quick! Yes I admit it, I am addicted to sugar!! So I had to sit down a re-group. I have invested so much emotionally this past year in my weight loss and after hitting a plateau and now weight gain I was feeling pretty down on myself. After losing almost 60 pounds the first year I started losing weight, to now spending the entire second year working hard and managing to lose 30 only to gain 20 back it was hard for me.
BUT I had to look at more numbers than just the number on the scale. I was still consistently loosing inches. After gaining 10 pounds in one month my personal trainer still measured a 2 inch loss in my waist. I have gone down 2 almost 3 pants sizes and I can tell I am gaining muscle mass and tone. So honestly all was not lost. I had to start looking at my numbers differently. Its not just about the number on the scale.
November 20th I began participating in my personal trainers boot camp. We workout 3 days a week for an hour, we sweat our butts off and work hard. In addition, one day a week I workout personally with my trainer one on one. So I am getting 4 days of hard workouts in. It would be so incredible to say I lost a ton of weight starting this but then I'd be a liar. But for the first time this week after we started the scale moved in a direction that I liked... in 5 weeks of boot camp and getting my diet back on track (not quite back to the no sugar yet though :)) I lost 3 pounds this week!!
I am getting back on the right wagon... no more pitty party, I feel bad for myself, I'm a failure blah blah blah. I am starting off 2011 strong. I can not compare 2010 results to my 2009 results nor will I look back on 2010 and have it dampen my 2011 expectations! I am stronger than I think I am, I have accomplished more than most people dream, and I am not finished!!! The best is yet to come!!
Now you all have to keep me accountable... I will be coming up with my goals for 2011 and no matter what, I will always strive to do my best to look for the positive in my situations. I have started studying for my ACSM personal training certification and am looking forward to what the future brings. Lets all start today in making 2011 better than 2010!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
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