In a nutshell back in October when I ran the Tails and Trails 5K I was hit on the eyelid by a bug or something. When I brushed it off I felt a small stinging sensation but didn't think too much about it, after all I was running in a race. As the week following progressed my right eye began to swell where the bug hit me and I soon looked like I had been in a big ol fight!
It took 10 weeks but finally after 4 doctors, multiple antibiotics, steroids, and ointments and I finally have my eyelids back to normal! They never fully concluded if it was the bug that caused all the mayhem but was told it was a stubborn case of blepharitis and staph infection.
Because of being on all the medications, steroids, lack of exercise and crappy eating, I ended up gaining around 20 pounds! Not what I wanted to do. After all I was on track to try and get to my 100 pound weight loss goal by January 1, 2011. I felt like I had gotten on the wrong bandwagon and didn't know it! Isn't my weight and health suppose to be getting better not worse?!?!
I knew I wasn't going to reach my weight loss goal by the end of the year and the whole no sugar thing... well that went out the window real quick! Yes I admit it, I am addicted to sugar!! So I had to sit down a re-group. I have invested so much emotionally this past year in my weight loss and after hitting a plateau and now weight gain I was feeling pretty down on myself. After losing almost 60 pounds the first year I started losing weight, to now spending the entire second year working hard and managing to lose 30 only to gain 20 back it was hard for me.
BUT I had to look at more numbers than just the number on the scale. I was still consistently loosing inches. After gaining 10 pounds in one month my personal trainer still measured a 2 inch loss in my waist. I have gone down 2 almost 3 pants sizes and I can tell I am gaining muscle mass and tone. So honestly all was not lost. I had to start looking at my numbers differently. Its not just about the number on the scale.
November 20th I began participating in my personal trainers boot camp. We workout 3 days a week for an hour, we sweat our butts off and work hard. In addition, one day a week I workout personally with my trainer one on one. So I am getting 4 days of hard workouts in. It would be so incredible to say I lost a ton of weight starting this but then I'd be a liar. But for the first time this week after we started the scale moved in a direction that I liked... in 5 weeks of boot camp and getting my diet back on track (not quite back to the no sugar yet though :)) I lost 3 pounds this week!!
I am getting back on the right wagon... no more pitty party, I feel bad for myself, I'm a failure blah blah blah. I am starting off 2011 strong. I can not compare 2010 results to my 2009 results nor will I look back on 2010 and have it dampen my 2011 expectations! I am stronger than I think I am, I have accomplished more than most people dream, and I am not finished!!! The best is yet to come!!
Now you all have to keep me accountable... I will be coming up with my goals for 2011 and no matter what, I will always strive to do my best to look for the positive in my situations. I have started studying for my ACSM personal training certification and am looking forward to what the future brings. Lets all start today in making 2011 better than 2010!
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