It was astounding to me how much weight I had gained in just the span of a year! I had been telling myself for this past year that I had only gained a little weight, maybe 30 pounds tops but in actuality it was double that! I tried to deny the fact that I was gaining weight even though I continued to not workout and eat crappy. This picture was my wake up call! I need to get myself back on track or else I was going to be more and more miserable with myself and how I failed!
Recently a Planet Fitness was being built in my city and at my primary job they offered us all free memberships the the new club... (one of the amazing perks of getting a new job where the employers care about their employees!) One of my co-workers discovered on Friday that the club was finished and was opening its doors! Then Sunday night I received a text from another co-worker inviting me to workout at 6am. Morning workouts would be the best for me, especially with the 2 jobs, but I never kept up any consistent effort and I gave up after just a few days, so needless to say I was skeptical with an AM workout. Having the invitation and accountability of the co-workers I see on a daily basis, I reluctantly said I would do my best to be there.
This morning a little after 6 am I had my tired body on the elliptical working out next to a co-worker. 30 minutes on the machine had me huffing and puffing but I finished! I have a ways to get back to where I was but I am on my way! Another 6am workout is scheduled for tomorrow with my coworkers and I plan on being there! I really want this habit to stick!
I remember how confidant I felt when I had lost weight and I want to feel that again! It is not about a number on the scale or the size of pants I fit into... Its that feeling when I can be in public and not feel self-conscious about if my belly is sticking out or if my shirt is covering my big ol dairy-air... I didn't have to make sure in picture I was hiding in the very back and holding my chin up so I didn't look like I had a double chin... I smiled with confidence and wore my shirt tucked in. Its time for me to feel that again! Especially feel that way on my wedding day! 124 days until I walk down the isle... 124 days to find the inner princess I seem to have lost this past year under pounds on weight gain... The rest of my life to keep that inner princess alive and confidant!!
